Friday, November 19, 2010

I used to be _____ but I'm not anymore

Two people with whom I've reconnected in the past few days have commented that they always thought they'd read something of mine one day. It's kind of ... I suppose disconcerting to get this sort of feedback on the direction people thought your life would take. And, frankly, so did I.

I remember how in grade 12, my English teacher burst out laughing when I told him what undergrad program I'd selected. He thought it was a waste and that I belonged in English.

Post high school, writing as a hobby just got shoved aside and shelved like all my other hobbies ... and I just never picked them back up again. But I still think about writing all the time. In fact, I think in narration ... my inner dialogue is third person, and constantly being edited and revised. I'll mentally rehearse a dozen ways of describing scenes. I think in terms of characters and plot and mood and setting. There are so many unwritten novels in my head. But any sort of creative writing that I do now - a rarity, really - feels so awkward and stilted.

I would like to be read.

It's hard enough to be published if you're really talented. And, as much as I would like to be, I'm afraid I'm not.

2 comments:

  1. Lys- you ARE really talented. & you may find your writing awkward & stilted right now, but you'll get back into it. I didn't write very much in English for so long & I know I struggled with it last year when my program began, but with time, it's become much easier. Keep reading & writing (,editing, revising) those inner monologues & when you have time to get back into it pour vrai, it'll come back. You may even have chosen the perfect career path (in the end) to survive in the writing world.

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